It's amazing how much I can miss someone. I haven't heard from Matt in about a week, guess he's been busy. Its odd to get an outpouring of emotion, only to be cut off so suddenly. The last thing I want to do is push someone who's already on fragile ground. I suppose since he's not used to emotional expression it would make sense that he would pull back like this. I wish him well and hope he finds his way through.
All that's left is for me to find something to do with myself. I'm back on the meds I've been missing but they don't seem to be helping so far. I know it'll take about a month for it to build up in my system again and maybe by then I'll see some improvement.  For now, I'll have to fight my urge to sleep all the time and hope I win. To date, that's been a losing battle.

I've been listening to a few songs that have put me in an odd place.
So here's where I've been...

Tracy Chapman - Thinking of you

Blue October - Schizophrenia

Breaking Benjamin - The Diary of Jane

Blue October - James the first half of the video is the explanation of the song

Staind -  Tangled Up In You